Sunshine and Warm Weather

What two wonderful days we have had this weekend.  Last weekend we were covered with a blanket of snow!  The snow was just absolutely beautiful, but cold on the bones of all the seniors here at our senior complex.  Nothing was stirring, not even a mouse!  We just could not stay away from the windows though. One lady said she turned out all her lights, curled up on the couch, and looked out the window as snow fell, lit up by the security lights.  What is that saying “Once a man, twice a child”?
The temperature reached nearly 80 degrees both yesterday and today. It sure lifted my spirits a lot. Libby and I rode to Tony’s, in  Gastonia, yesterday and got a Banana split each.  My, Oh My!  I needed that like I needed a hole in my head. If you haven’t been fortunate enough to have an ice cream place  like Tony’s  near where you live, you have missed something wonderful (but fattening). We won’t even go there !!!
Lately I have been thinking about how I drop in on Victoria and Kevin everyday (via phone calls).  They tell me they don’t mind but I’m sure they must.  I remember when I was married to Jim, that every time his folks would drop by to see us, just as soon as they would leave he would say, “Well, wonder what they were trying to find out this time”,  or something of that sort!
Bob’s mother put me through some hard times because she was so jealous of me, because he married me. But I have to say, I think she loved me like a daughter before she died. So did Jim’s mother. After our marriage broke up, every time she came into the restaurant to eat, when I walked over to speak to her, tears would roll down her cheeks.
I guess all of that sort of “marked me” as my mama used to say.  I am so afraid of stepping out of my place, that I am always questioning them about it! Kevin is my only child but he is  certainly NOT a mama’s boy, Thank God.  He loves me, as every child should love their mother, and he has always looked out for me. I have always prayed, from day one, that he would find a girl who would love him as much as he deserved to be loved, and that he would love her in the exact same way. Well , my Prayers were answered when God brought Victoria into his life again. They are like two peas in a pod and I have never seen him happier than he is right now. I just don’t want to ever do anything that would make her think that I was trying to hold on to him. I couldn’t be happier than I am now. Because Kevin has finally found his soul mate. I believe that with all my heart and I give God the credit for it all. The only thing! I wish He would have brought them together years earlier, so I could hear the pitter-patter of little feet running through my house.
Victoria has two beautiful grown daughters, though, that I will gladly accept as my granddaughters if they will but accept me. God knows what He is doing. He knew as old as I was, I would rather have two already grown grands (as my friends of COLOR calls their grandchildren).
It’s kind of a lonely life when you start going down the other side of the hill! My biggest fear is that I might be a bother to someone or that I might lose my independence. I have a little plaque that reads  ” Live , So that when you are gone, It will have mattered that you were here”.
That’s how I want my new family to think of me!